January 2011
57 posts
I wish just ONCE you would look at me like you look at her, like i look at you. You’re the favourite part of my day. I fucking hate you for being so shallow, yet so addictive.
I feel so at peace some days. So, completely, utterly at peace. Then other days my mind feels like a tornados ripped through it. I wish I wasn’t bipolar, And I could be calm and happy and at peace forever.
I’m failing 3 of my classes and instead of being worried about that, my biggest concern is I can’t purge what I just ate….
God, I wish you were gay too.
I tried to make the night last as long as I could because I knew after that night, nothing would ever happen between us again.
I wish more people submitted stories. About their love life. How there’s that one person who gives them butterflies. Or their family. How they have the worst or the best family. Or about anything. Because I know there will be people reading it, And caring. You’re not alone. Remember that. <3
i have no friends. i wish someone would talk to me.
To the girl who said her mom supports her eating disorder: Me and my mom look at Elevate ( a plastic surgery magazine) together. We argue over what we should get done next. Its so fucked up how this is the closest I’ve ever felt to her.
I wish I could tell you how much I missed you. But. I want you to be the weaker one. I’m sorry.
My mother supports my eating disorder and has one herself. Its sickening how we discuss how many calories we’ve had. And how we “binge” on apples. I want to get better now. Not for myself but for my future children. I can’t believe things are this bad.
i feel that none of you would care if i told my story anyway
I am so glad that you exist.
I wish I could tell my friends how cute I think your smile is. How good our skin looks mixed in. How your smile is contagious. How I can’t sleep thinking about you. How I picture myself with you in different situations. How you look me straight in the eyes and focus on me when you talk even if we’re in a crowd. How special you make me feel. How amazing you are. Sometimes I...
I don’t understand. You treat me special. Even when we’re in a crowd, your eyes are on mine. You speak directly to me when there’s 10 other people in the conversation. Your smile is so damn cute, I have to smile. But I fucking hate you. Because your better then me. If I wasn’t such a jealous bitch, I would be so madly in love with you You’re perfect.
I’m ugly. Disgusting. Violent. Gross. Fat. Everything you could possibly hate in a person is who I am now. And it’s made me become alone. I absolutely hate the loneliness.
I love all of you.
I want to know why I have never been good enough for you, and you and you and YOU. I feel so alone, but it’s amazing the amount of people surrounding me.
It’s been over a year since we dated, I’m over you, and in love with someone else. But yet you keep appearing in my dreams, and doing things in them that seem symbolical; not just random like most of my dreams. And I still have random thoughts about you, sometimes of hate, of regret, of shame, of loss. It’s been so long, why do I still feel this way? Why can’t I forget you?
You make my heart stop. You’re so different from everyone I’ve ever known, or been attracted to, and I cannot believe you are mine. Please stay mine.
I cannot fathom why I fell so hard for you. I don’t even believe in love, but I know that I’ll never have another relationship like ours ever again. Maybe that’s why I still miss you. “I couldn’t forget you if I tried.”
I’m so tired of being alone. I try to reach out to people, but then I think I’m annoying and pull back. I can’t fully trust people. I can’t speak normally to someone. I just want a friend. Someone to talk to and listen to. I hate falling into this never-ending pit named loneliness. I can’t stand it any longer. Would anyone like to be my friend?
i really suck at thinking about the future, i dont even know what im gonna do in my life the next two days from now, but i know what im going to do im gonna work in a fashion magazine, be an editor you know just like what i’ve wanted since i was younger. going around the world is my biggest dream, but seeing where i am right now, the condition, money and everything just putting me one step...
I still can’t get over my eigth grade crush. Im in the middle of my freshman year. All I think about is the friendship we used to have, how it was so strong. Even though I messed things up and tried to fix it, there’s no turning back, I’d do nearly anything. *correction : ILL DO ANYTHING TO HAVE IT BACK. All I want to do is to hear that laugh, see that smile, and go to sleep...
Even though I have a boyfriend now, I still think about you almost every single day, and the worst part of it all is that I know you probably don’t have a single thought about me. It’s been years, and I can’t seem to let go of you. I hope I do soon. You’re been an asshole and you’re kind of a douche but you were my best friend, and I hate how I love you.
When I was dating a white guy who was a complete asshole, my parents were proud of me. They said how great he was, and how good looking he was. All because I’m expected to date within my race. I’m currently dating a black guy. I’ve never been treated with such respect as he treats me with. I’ve never been so in love. My dad won’t even talk to me now. Guess what...
Everyone, everyone has a purpose in this world and everyone is special in their own ways. Don’t look for the negative things about you, look for the positive! You will be so much happier. It is okay to feel alone sometimes and maybe you are just alone right now because you haven’t met the right people yet. Everything happens for a reason, so don’t dwell on the past and move...
I’m not jealous. I know that you’re too egotistical to understand that, but I’m not jealous. I’m hurt. You told me every night that I was everything, that you loved me, that you’d give anything to make me happy. Every night, we’d talk until we were struggling to keep our eyes open, but neither of us wanted to hang up because we liked the sound of each...
Go on. Go out there and show them how much more you need them than you need us.
I don’t know how many nights I’ve spent crying on my bathroom floor, or how many times I’ve talked to a god that doesn’t exist. I don’t know who I am, or what I want. I don’t know where you are or if you ever think of me. I don’t know what any of this means and I can’t keep pretending that I’m okay. I just want something, anything, to make...
I love you…but you pressure me to have sex with you. I’m not ready for all that, I only do it so you won’t get mad. It’s nothing personal, really. I’d just rather hold you all night. Is that so bad?
I wish I could restart my life. I wish I was in a game. So I could, like save and resume, or restart..I made so much mistakes, and I still laugh at the reasons why I did those things, then I start to get depressed because I let so much people down…I wish I could restart. I made such a reputation that, everyone just automatically assumes I’ll do something horrible, or that I’m a...
We used to be so close, you were someone I could always count on. Someone I could talk to, someone I never had before. But now, we barely say hi, you get on my nerves, I get on yours. And I’m just so sick of it. I wish I could scream at you. Shout at you asking you “WHY”. But I can’t seem to, because honestly I’m scared. Even though you piss me off, and I want to slap...
You’re in love with my best friend. She’s in love with your best friend. I’m not in love with you, but I’m so willing to try. You’re not. So fuck you.
As much as I would love to complain about my body and how I look or how lonely I am. And I do have complaints both. I am too tall, whoever says 5’8 is not tall for a girl can stuff it. I’m as tall or taller than more boys I meet and I’m 18. Puberty’s over. And I will never lose those 10 pounds that would give a me an ideal body instead of looking like humpty dumpty. How...
I hate what I see in the mirror.
You’re the only man who hasn’t hurt me in my life. I don’t care that people say we’re stupid and young and just full of lust. You’re the only man who hasn’t beaten me, abandoned me, or cut me into pieces with your words. You loved me when I was fat and a mess and nobody else wanted to. It’s been three years. I don’t care that it has to be a secret...
two years ago you asked me out my dad said no. i secretly still loved you. then last year you i thought you liked me still, but were playing hard to get.I heard you were using girls, but i thought that was just a fake by some mean girls. Now, this year, your dating and acting ruse to me. Today, you were putting your hand down a ‘friends’ back, bra and all. You said you were trying to...
As emotional unstable as it sounds, knowing that I will not be able to see you everyday really does make me want to kill myself.
One night on a field trip for guitar majors in my high school two of my best friends agreed to let one vomit on the other as they both stood naked in a shower. The night before, my best friend got expelled for bringing 2 liters of a generous mix of bourbon and coke. The night after, my best friend kissed me when no one was looking, and started a chain of events that ended up with me telling him to...
I wanted to believe that anything is possible, but you just proved me wrong.
My best from was “attacked” at our school soccer field early this year. We’re both avid readers, and we read a lot of stories about girls getting raped. She always said that one out of 3 girls get raped in their lifetime. She use to joke that it’d be her. Now we don’t mention it. But because of what happened, she didn’t go to school for the rest of the semester....
I’m sick of people. I’m tired, so tired. They are ungrateful, they don’t care, they don’t even think two seconds before saying something that might hurt. Why do people need to be so selfish? I’m tired of feeling like nobody cares, it’s all bullshit. Why should we do things? Nobody cares for anyone but themselves. They like people for what they can do for...
You are The One. I just know it. I can feel it every minute I’m with you, feel it every time you reach over to squeeze my knee under the table, every time you look over at me and smile, every time you pull me over to kiss me on the forehead. I love the way your face lights up when someone mentions something you’re interested in, love the way you lay with your head on my lap when we...
I really want to be with you. I really want to just have that feeling of knowing I’m with the best guy in the world for me and I wouldn’t change a damn thing about him. I don’t care if we’re 9 years apart, we can just pretend. I know you like me and I like you. So can’t we just get it out in the open and be free about it?
I walked down the river with you, for you lure me there with destractions on my mind. Little did i know it wasn’t the reason we were to be lead down this track. You promised me we wouldn’t. Yet you persisted untill i aloud you to get closer. You promised we wouldn’t go far. Yet you held me down, i told you to stop, i told you that you promised, but all you could do was to look me...
You basically scared me of ever falling for a boy again. What you did to me was harsh,mean,and just horrible. I cried, so fucking much. I like this boy, but because of you i’m terrified to be with him. i don’t want to be hurt again. Even though he doesnt seem the type to cheat, you didn’t either til you did.
My girlfriend, the love of my life, died the January before junior prom. I’m 19, and after all these years, I still love her, and have never been able to sustain a proper romantic relationship. I suck.
I’m scared about not being able to find myself.
“I love you also means I love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else.” — Jonathan Safran Foer
I’m sorry that I lied to you. I just wanted you to think that I was something.